Today my favorite moment happened while I was nursing Ollie before putting him to bed. It was a tough day. Henry was tired and hungry because he got up too early and didn't eat much. Jaxon cried a lot because Henry wasn't very nice to him because of the above mentioned reasons. Days like this are challenging. One high point was when Devin came home at 5:00 instead of 7:00 like I was expecting. He took advantage of his extra time at home and mowed the jungle we had growing in the backyard. While Jaxon and Henry were outside with Daddy, I nursed Oliver. I was completely burnt out. I was feeling frustrated as I relived moments of my day and feeling guilty for not being more patient when my kids misbehaved.
But as I looked down at Oliver, suddenly I felt so blessed. I felt my Heavenly Father's love for me. I felt a confirmation that He knows motherhood can be difficult at times, but He is pleased with my efforts. He knows I try and though I fail at times, he is glad I still keep trying. I thought about how some women have difficulty bearing children and I have been extremely blessed with the three I have. I know that no matter how crazy life might be with them, I would have nothing without them.
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